Leadership, as defined in Wikipedia, is “a process of social influence in which a person can enlist the help and support of others in accomplishing a common task. In the Dale Carnegie Leadership Training Manual, leadership is defined as “creating an environment that influences others to achieve the group's goals.” In both definitions, two fundamental elements of leadership emerged: influence and the group's common goal/task. Leadership therefore connotes the ability to influence others to do something for the group, for the community and not just for themselves. This is my Waterloo. I'm not very good at influencing people. So I had little confidence that I could be a good leader. With SLP I had built this trust little by little. With SLP I learned to know myself better. I realized that what sustained me as a leader first and foremost was pure bravado, a projection that I am the hero who could improve the Division; who could give people what they deserve. And I've worked very hard to uphold that image, to give our people what they want. Until I got tired and burned out. Until complaints and problems arise. Until other requests are fulfilled. Then I became the autocratic leader, telling everyone what to do, making them do what they were told because I hold the position of leader. Then I got tired again and looked for people who could help me. I delegated much of the work I previously did to them. But then things aren't like that